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I am a little past the halfway point for the first pass of sewing the squares together. Here’s where the urge to see it finished is helpful. Like many things in life, the urge to create is often easily daunted by the realities of actually creating (I have to cut out how many squares? and sew them together? and then what? are you kidding?) or by the fears of creating (what if I can’t do it? what if I screw it up? who am I kidding – I’m not good enough) or creatings aftermath (what if they hate it? what if they hate me? what if I fail?)

I find for projects that are developing, regardless of how much time elapsed from first glimmer of an idea to ‘ok, starting now’ I have a real interest in seeing how they turn out. Will it be similar to what’s in my head? Will the colors work the way I hope? What will happen with this next bit? That and some good music or audio entertainment can really see you through the longer repetitive parts!

I recently read a book by Eric Maisel which talks about embracing the dualities — understanding that you can’t be all one thing and not the other. It’s not possible to just love process or product – art requires both. Sometimes you need process. Sometimes it’s the product. Why spend time struggling against what has to be. Right now, I’m sewing small squares together because that’s what I need to do in order to achieve my idea – in order to create.